At peace

It feels like most things are spiralling downwards right now. That's not even the worst part. The worst thing is that I feel there's nothing I can do about it. It's not like I'm indifferent to it, it's just that I've kind of lost all my spirit. I've made attempts to do something about it, but really they are mere attempts to try to convince me, fool me into thinking things will work out. But they won't ever. And I'm in an abyss. I just need to be better in every single way so I can finally be at peace with myself.